He chided the House managers for having no compassion.

who would go straight to his goal without asking questions.... If I

worried myself all those days, wondering whether Napoleon would have

done it or not, I felt clearly of course that I wasn't Napoleon. I had

to endure all the agony of that battle of ideas, Sonia, and I longed

to throw it off: I wanted to murder without casuistry, to murder for

my own sake, for myself alone! I didn't want to lie about it even to

myself. It wasn't to help my mother I did the murder- that's nonsense-

I didn't do the murder to gain wealth and power and to become a